Thanks to all of you who responded. It's a comfort to know that there are those who have struggled to some degree with similar problems.
Which only proves, in my opinion, that there has to be something in each of us that drives us to seek the very thing which strikes that fear. I prefer to think of mine as a "spiritual" journey as opposed to a "religious" one. Peace is what I'm after, it doesn't matter to me how I get there. Maybe I need to redefine and look at the fear as a positive force in my life.