Dear Undone,
You could be writing my story-- except the Episcopal church has been my spiritual base for the past fourteen years. And it has been a wonderful place, full of love and grace and people who spoke my language, people who had words for my spiritual hunger. I experienced God, Jesus in remarkable and very personal ways. Lately, however, I keep bumping into the images of Father and Son, and I am startled by my feelings of alienation (I am a 49 year old woman). Like you, I don't know what will replace the old certainty--perhaps nothing can. But I sense at a certain level (when I don't panic!) that this is a good, a growing place to be. Your voice, your truth affirms this for me, and this seems to be my experience of God.
Thank you.