Beautifully put!
Amen to paradox!
I think this has much to do with whether one perceives the situation from a dualistic or non-dualistic perspective. From the dualistic perspective we do choose and it does matter. From the non-dual perspective we don't choose and it does not matter. When the Jesus of John's gospel says, "I and the Father are one", he speaks from a non-dual perspective. In fact, it seems to me, most of the "I am" statements in John express non-dual consciousness.
The latest issue (Sep-Nov 2005) of What Is Enlightenment magazine has a discussion about immortality between Ken Wilber and Andrew Cohen that is quite relevent to this. I will quote a little of what Wilber says:
"...there is a little stretch of hell in our development from subconsious to self-conscious to superconscious. The subconscious realm doesn't suffer because it is not self-conscious. There is no existential angst. But then there is a period where you're self-conscious enough to know that you're finite and you intuit infinity, but you haven't yet awakened to real infinity. And between that is all of the hell of humanity. ... It is absolute hell because you are on earth, you intuit heaven, and you are a mixture of both. I think the great archetypal figure of this is Christ. Because, for example, the sitting image of the Buddha is largely one who is simply awakened and "off the wheel [of samsara, the phenomenal world]". He is awakened to the inifinite unmanifest but hasn't integrated the manifest. But Christ is both human and divine, and he knows fully that he is both. And the passion on the cross is the passion of humanity between these two points. I think it's a beautiful image. It's a sad, horrifying image, but it's very true."
I think this is pretty good Christian theology coming from a practicing Buddhist. I would equate subconscious with Eden, self-conscious with the fall/sin, and superconscious with salvation (death of self to be replaced by Christ living in us).
This is a good discussion. I enjoy it. Thanks!
John