Hi, I am new here so I guess I should do the intro!
Basically and briefly: grew up in Evangelical household, father was pastor. Rejected it all and went on a journey to find myself/Truth/God/Whatever - went through many things - Gurdjieff, Islam, magic and assorted other things. I learnt a lot and, believe it or not, grew a lot through it all but none of it brought me closer to God. I never felt I was lost or sinning or anything, just not closer.
I was always opposed to literalist Christianity (but not Jesus) though I was never an atheist, I saw myself mostly as Muslim I suppose in an ideological sense though I did not practice or know many other Muslims. But then things changed this week. My father passed away last week and when I went to see him in the hospital as he was passing I just experienced Love (capital L). He could not speak so we did not talk (though I said some things and he could understand) but we shared an experience where both he and I moved on and transcended. I believe he went past his literal readings of Jesus and I did too. Since then I have come back to Jesus so.... here I am!
The loss still is a bit raw but there is this new found Love and Acceptance underneath. It is as if everything ha been "let go of" - I put it like that because it was not me that did it, it happened for me or to me. I just want now to move on and follow Jesus. I don't quite know how but that's for another time I guess!
Anyway, that's me so hello!
I am in the South of England btw if anyone else is and wants to catch up!