searchingmom

I am 41, live on the East Coast and was raised a practicing Catholic. This form of religion has always worked for me and I have been raising my 2 kids, ages 9 and 12 in the Catholic faith as well. Over the last couple of years something has been gnawing at me. I have been left feeling empty when I go to church. I want to have a spiritual relationship with God and I want my children to have that as well. I have been stuffing this dissatisfaction away because I haven't known what to do with it. I know I'm being called to worship in a less structured way, and yet I feel like children need some sense of structure and routine in their faith journey. I haven't been able to come up with a way to combine the two - and, honestly, the idea of figuring it out has been too overwhelming. Then a few hours ago I was eating lunch with a friend at work and told her that I feel like I don't want to go to church on Mothers Day. I want to go to a local state park, sit by the river and worship with my family in some way. She answered, "So do it." And so I think I will....but I have no idea how. Anyone who has any suggestions, I would really appreciate it! Phew...that was a really long introduction:)