DebD

Sitting more still these days (finally bought my own zafu - meditation cushion) so feelings are definitely coming up and I have learned to just observe them. My 30 year old daughter leaves for Greece today - she has the life I hoped she would have in many ways and I am so happy -- but at the same time I am looking at my life and feeling that I have lived a life of deprivation in many ways....raised her by myself....put us both through Ivy league schools (don't ask me how I did this!) -- yet I feel that I never got a piece of the pie or didn't allow myself a piece -- in terms of career/love/travel.....On the other hand, I have spent a lot of time on my spiritual life.....and really know that it is all about what is within...peace and stillness....not reacting to thoughts.... Don't mind me -- 57 and constantly reflecting on my life -- need to stay HERE NOW!

Thanks everyone for your warm welcome! Looks like I am in the right place!

My name is Deborah. I am 57 years young and just waking up to the fact that the Gospels were written 70 - 100 years after Jesus was crucified....hmmm...maybe there weren't any angels singing or shepherds watching or magi following a star! Could it be that this was added later on....much later on? Reading Bishop's Spong's books and realizing that they make total sense.....gee, am I a late bloomer or what? Darwin, Galileo .... I am finally getting up to speed! Modern Christian here.....Silence, contemplation, zen.....yeah, now maybe now I can get on with real growth -- more love -- more silence -- more genuine inspirations....from the Spirit!