Jonny,
Your church experience is very much like mine. I am so much seen as "the confused person who hasn't got it quite right". I ask all those difficult questions!
They know I'm knowledgable about the bible, but somehow I just don't "get it".
It is a chore to go to church. The wife and kids like it, so I go, and I love the people. Just don't like what they say sometimes!
A.