thormas,
Thank you for your reply.
That is a vast question, but I will begin to chip away at it here:
I see God, the Father, as the creator of the universe via the Big Bang, his design for evolution part of the design. But, although I say "Father", that is merely a cultural concept and nomenclature; God is a he/she/it, a metaphysical, energy source, not a humanoid being in any way.
I see Jesus as his son, from him, but not him, literally. I do not believe I have to sign-on with in any certain religion (or specific dogma within a denomination) to be "saved"; it is much more complex than that in my view and metaphysical. In many ways I consider all religions simply extensions and tribal creations of Homo Sapiens, created, and relative to each culture. They all hold general revelations, but none hold an absolute path.
The Holy Spirit is a 'ghost" in a sense, disembodied-- but so is the Father. The Holy Spirit is hard to understand and put into words-- in some ways, it is the literal energy that bridges, God, Jesus, and Man/Woman. Yet, it seems to have an actual intelligence, something normal energy (such as an electron) lacks.
Mother Mary is special to me; it is due to my cultural background.
I do not pray to her-- she is not a deity, but merely the spirit of a very pure, special woman, Jesus' mother.
I know she cares for me and I relate to her more than I do to Jesus, honestly.
Some people have said to me that the concept of her as immortal/special, etc comes directly from the ancient worship of Aphrodite/Venus. In some ways, that may be true. But, I'm fine with that as an ex-Pagan who worshiped Freya, the Odinic goddess.
Yes, I am confused but am trying to understand more clearly and learn the real truth (whatever that may be.)
Please feel free to ask me any questions you may wish.
Kind regards.