This thread is intended to be a practical guide to the practice of forgiveness. It will not answer the question "Should I forgive?" but will instead answer the question "How do I forgive now that I've decided I want to forgive?" If you want to have a debate about whether forgiveness is needed, please start another thread. If you want to ask questions about the praxis of Christian forgiveness -- what you're supposed to do each day as part of your daily life to live according to the Way, the Truth, and the Life -- then stay here, and please! ask me practical questions!
Again, this is practical, not theoretical. In this thread, I assume you want to know how to forgive. I assume you think it's a good idea. And I also assume you have no idea where to begin. This latter assumption may sound like a stab in the dark to you, but I'm basing it on my own experiences 2,000 years ago. The idea of forgiveness sounded marvellous to me then, but I had no clue whatsoever how to describe it, how to "find" it, or how to "keep" it. But I learned. So I hope to be able to help you understand your own innate ability to forgive, which is part of your divine inheritance from God the Mother and God the Father.
I will be using some scientific terms. If you don't understand them, please ask me, or please do a little research on your own. I can't emphasize enough how important it is for you as Christians to begin to include some scientific understanding in your theological discourse.
Let's start first with an important image I'll be returning to as we go along. I will call this the Parable of the Bodybuilder:
The Parable of the Bodybuilder
Delilah and Samson are sister and brother. They each stand 5 feet 8 inches tall. By the age of 25, Delilah weighs 135 pounds. Samson weighs 155 pounds. They are healthy. They look attractive. They eat balanced, nutritious meals. They sleep well. They have loving relationships with their respective spouses. They have a loving, balanced, normal sexuality within their marriages. All is going quite well, as far as God is concerned.
One day, after Delilah has been watching TV, she looks in the mirror and says, "I'm fat! I'm ugly! My husband doesn't desire me anymore!" -- none of which is true, but Delihah says it anyway. Then Samson, who has always tended to follow his sister in her beliefs, looks in the mirror and says, "I'm fat! I'm ugly! My husband doesn't desire me anymore!" [not a typo]. Delilah and Samson say to each other, "What shall we do?" They think and think, and then Samson says, "Let's become bodybuilders. Then we won't be fat anymore. Then we won't be ugly anymore. And our beloved partners will love us."
To get a perfect six-pack, they have to go to the gym every day. And they do. They follow very specific exercises. They repeat them hundreds and hundreds of times. They listen to the trainer's advice. They change the food they eat. They take banned substances to force their bodies to realign muscle, fat, connective tissue. Slowly, their bodies begin to change shape. The shape is not the shape dictated by their own DNA. The shape is not a shape that's natural to either males or females. The shape comes at a great cost: more injuries, more bouts of illness becaused of impaired immune function, more sleep disorders, more problems with libido, more problems with impulse control, and more conflicts within their relationships. The shape, however, is all that matters to them. Each day, Delilah and Samson make the conscious choice to reshape their physical bodies. Their bodies obey. Their muscles grow and grow in certain places because they're forced to. But that doesn't make their bodies healthy or happy.
Delilah and Samson show us how powerful our conscious will power is. They show us how much our daily disciplines (whatever they are) can radically alter the natural shape of our bodies. They show us how much our conscious will power and our daily disciplines can override our DNA. They show us that we have the power to change and damage our bodies if we try really hard each day. Just be using our daily thoughts and actions.
Now . . . take the image of the bodybuilders, and apply the same story to your brain.
It's helpful here to remember that your brain is a physical substance. It's a part of your biological body. Your brain is not the same thing as your mind. Your mind is a generic term to describe your non-physical state of "consciousness" or "awareness of self." Mind is 4-dimensional, and can't be seen or measured in the 3D reality where you live. Your brain, on the other hand, is totally 3D. When you die as a human being, you take your mind with you as a soul. But you leave your physical brain behind inside your physical body. Your physical brain, being part of your physical body, is just as easily controlled and damaged by your conscious will power as your physical body is. Just as the bodybuilder can slowly but surely force his or her physical body to change shape, you (and yes, I mean you!) can slowly but surely force your brain to change shape.
This can be a good thing, or this can be a bad thing, depending on what belief system you choose.
I will further reduce these ideas to a maxim:
What You Put In Your Brain Matters
If you get up every morning, and think of your old friend Harry who once cheated you, and you say to yourself every morning, "I hate Harry. Harry deserves to be punished. One day I will get even with Harry," then what you are doing every morning is forcing your brain to try to grow new fibres (like neuronal dendrites, neuronal axons, and sundry glial cells) to connect to an idea called "hate." Your DNA, by the way, does not come with programming for "hate" because your DNA originates in your soul, and your soul has no programming for hate. However, just as your physical body does not naturally grow a perfect abdominal six-pack, but can be forced into it, your physical brain can be forced into building a paradigm labelled "hate." This paradigm becomes physically hardwired into your brain. It is not "just an idea" that has no physical reality. Hate is a series of interconnected brain cells that you have forced your brain to construct through constant repetition of your "need" for hatred and your "need" for revenge.
If the bodybuilder wants to return to a normal human shape, it will not happen overnight. Just because the bodybuilder suddenly changes his/her mind about having a six-pack does not mean the muscles, etc. will instantly realign themselves. The bodybuilder will have to patiently and carefully institute a new daily regimen to coax the body's tissues in a new, more healthful direction.
The same applies to your physical brain. If you decide you no longer want to hate Harry, but that instead you want to forgive Harry, you will have to persuade your brain to literally chew up the dendrites, axons, neurotransmitters, etc. that are currently plugged into your "hate paradigm." There's a little cluster of brain cells whose job it is to keep track of the "hate paradigm," whose job it is to inform you that it's time for you to have your daily hate-fix, whose job it is to remind you that you "hate" Harry, whose job it is to tell other parts of your brain that hate is, in fact, a very useful way to cope with life's stresses. (!) And that cluster sits in there till the day you die unless you "fire it," give it the pink slip, show it the door and tell it not to come back. It will go, and it will go quite happily, but only if you give it clear, consistent, continuous instruction. This means that you have to give your brain a new set of instructions to follow, a new set of instructions that are intended to supercede the previous set. The new set of instructions is the "boss," and the boss takes charge of sweeping out the old paradigm of hate, of literally pulling the plug on the biological circuits that are generating a false sense of "hate" in your poor, overburdened brain. This part of the job can be likened to your body's mechanism for getting rid of bruises on your skin. A bruise is visible to your physical eyes because blood has pooled under the surface of your skin following some sort of trauma. Your body sends in various specialized cells whose job it is to eat up the dead blood cells sitting in the bruise, and reabsorb the components into your body for reuse or disposal. The same thing happens in your physical brain. The "hate paradigm" is like a long-lived bruise, but unlike a bruise in your muscles, the brain-bruise will stay there until you give clear instructions that you don't want it anymore. But once you make that choice, your body will begin to send in specialized cells whose job it is to literally eat up and reabsorb the dendritic connections, etc. But this times time. And most of this work is done by your body while you are asleep. And sometimes the chewing-up process is so finicky and complex that you can have temporary side effects like headaches. It's like a construction zone on the highway. While the work is going on, the construction site causes slowdowns and detours. But in the end, when the smooth new asphalt is in place, you're grateful for the temporary but necessary inconvenience that created a much better highway.
I hope I'm making this clear. Forgiveness is not just an abstract idea. Forgiveness is also a biological process. And to learn how to forgive, you have to make allowances for the biological changes that will take place in your physical brain.
Would it be too much, then, to say that learning how to forgive can sometimes give you a headache?
No! A person who is learning how to forgive is a person who is undertaking to change the physical shape of his or her own brain. So you might get some temporary physical symptoms during the "reconstruction" phase. If you know this ahead of time, you will not be frightened or confused. Most important, if you know this ahead of time, you cannot be tricked by another human being into being told the headache comes from a supernatural source -- for example, negative energies, negative entities, past life karma, negative thoughtforms, the devil, or a wrathful God. It's just part of the natural healing process. Other parts of your body give off uncomfortable sensations like increased tenderness, pain, itchiness, and lack of strength while they are healing. The brain is no different. The fact that the tissues inside your skull have no immediate receptors for pain is irrelevant. I don't want to hear back from anyone who wants to insist the brain does not feel pain. This is false. The brain does feel pain; it just doesn't feel the pain inside the skull where the neuron's cell bodies are located. Instead, the brain generates pain impulses along the very long neuronal axons that stretch far into your body from your brain, and you sense the pain in your body, even though it's being generated inside your brain. So . . .
The first step in learning how to forgive is learning to understand it as a biological healing process.
That's enough for today. No doubt, some of you will soon get a headache.
Love Jesus
November 7, 2007
